Gosh this past month has been an absolute joy in both the good experiences and the bad. From being ridden with disease, to sharing a part of my heart with the Redmans, it's all been an experience of a lifetime.
During the first of the month, I tested positive for the Rheumatoid Arthritis factor. I was sent to a Rheumatologist where I had blood work and a chest wall x-ray done. After the chest wall x-ray two weeks later came the x ray of my entire body. At this point, they were examining for Lupus because I tested positive for the Lupus factor, and cancers, too. We then get the news that all of my test results had came back negative. After having all of my friends, family, and church praying that God would provide -- He did. He healed me to the utmost and took all of the sickness away. I did have a follow-up MRI on my hip because it looks abnormal. And, of course, my doctor still wants me on my medication because he deems it safest for my body currently. And yes, while I am ridden of the disease and though I am only about 80% better, in God's eyes, I'm 100% better because God never does anything halfway. And yes while I could relapse and have my immune system haunted again, I'm trusting that God is the ultimate healer and I am not afraid to die because I"m gaining a lifetime with my Jesus.
Next, I sort of met someone. As exciting as it is, my heart is still guarded as it should be because I know what's meant to be will be anyway. So in the future if nothing results from anything, I can at least have a new friendship in my life because we could all use more friendships.
Tonight, I went to Passion City Church where I was overcome with the greatness of the Almighty living God. As Louie spoke, he spoke about lifting our hands and surrender. I realized more than ever that I am not bound by anything, not even disease nor death, because Jesus has conquered them both and will hold me victorious with Him...And when I go to be with Him we will reign forever. Isn't that AWESOME?!
After the church service, I had the privilege of meeting Beth Redman. What a sweet lady she is. Praise God for her. She and Matt (whom I got my cd autographed by tonight, also) are such blessings and their ministry touches millions of lives, especially my own. I continued to tell Beth how I sang the song they wrote together, "You Alone Can Rescue" over and over everyday like it was an anthem to my heart because of the truth the lyrics hold. No matter where I am or what I'm going through God is God. He is, He was, He always will be. It's as simple as that.
Who, oh Lord, could save themselves,
Their own soul could heal?
Our shame was deeper than the sea
Your grace is deeper still
Who, oh Lord, could save themselves,
Their own soul could heal?
Our shame was deeper than the sea
Your grace is deeper still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
You, oh Lord, have made a way
The great divide You heal
For when our hearts were far away
Your love went further still
Yes, your love goes further still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
To You alone belongs the highest praise
To You alone belongs the highest praise
You alone
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
To You alone belongs the highest praise
To You alone belongs the highest praise
To You alone
